Sunday, November 30, 2008

Week 3 - Little Sarah Goes to Children's Camp


I thank God for working out this camp - that at the heart of our Christian life and everything we do, we  are made to 'Glorify God'.


Little Sarah and Jie Jie Hazel

Little Sarah's expectant look.

And of course, Jan has delivered baby Joann. Praise God for a healthy baby:) [sigh...for once, I forgot to bring my camera]

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Week 2

My weekly routine consists of morning walks either at Tanjong Rhu or Bedok Reservoir as they are only about 7 mins drive from my place. Bedok Reservoir is a lovely place to walk - fresh 'green' air and lovely butterflies for Daniel and Sarah to run after. Anyone is more than welcome to join my family for a morning walk & run after Sarah..haha, juz drop me an sms:)  We thank God for another nice week as smses came. I hope it continues this way.


Thursday Afternoon - Swimming. It was an afternoon of splashing good time with Weining and Shasha. Weining is Daniel's cousin, and that makes her Sarah's Auntie. Shasha is the daughter of a dear colleague of mine who has passed on and she is really a splitting image of her beautiful mother. Having Shasha over to play is precious to me as her mom was precious to me. I was really glad to bring her out with Sarah. 

Thursday Evening - Hannah's 11 month celebration. Next to the pacifier, Hannah is Sarah's best friend. It is truly a blessing to see Hannah grow from strength to strength and to think that she will turn 1 in a month's time. Amazing grace!


Beautiful Bedok Reservoir and my walking path

The 3 butterfly catchers

Weining singing "The Hills are alive..."

Friday Morning - Bedok Reservoir. Our favourite morning haunt. Weining joined us that morning as she camped over at our place. After a red ant scare, Weining was happy just to be the certified 'butterfly net holder'. Sarah was a brave one...haha, following Daddy as he tried to find 'painted jezebels' and 'blue swallowtails'. A round of applause for the Butterfly Catchers.


Friday Evening - Gong Gong's Birthday. It is another year that God has preserved Gong Gong and given him good health - something that we cannot take for granted. With 4 generations under one roof, it was a nice and 'crammed' dinner.

Saturday Night - Waiting at the hospital. My sister goes into the labour ward requesting for 'hokkien mee'. Of course, I rolled my eyes at her request. Anyway, false alarm, so the family trudges back home. 

Sunday - Isabella is out!  At about 3 am, sis called to say 'She is ok. Baby is very cute'. It only dawned on me in the morning that baby Isabel had a very smooth delivery. Her mother sounded really awake and strong. Thank God for a uncomplicated delivery. 

Sunday - Samuel goes to church. Uncle YH takes some lovely shots of mommy and Samuel. 

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Week 1

It is exciting to let God take over your schedule cos it never goes wrong. As Dan and I prayed for Him to arrange our time, smses came and the appointments 'naturally' fell into place for the week.
Last Wed - Visitors from school
Really so nice to see these people. Azlan, Mr Champion and Mr Muthu. They all attended my church wedding and dinner celebration. Mr Champion (middle) was the very first teacher I met when I entered into teaching. He looked really formidable then...haha. But, he's one of the nicest person I have ever met.


Wednesday - Suping dropped by for a visit
We had lunch at Kushinbo and then it was a simple afternoon at my place. She had just returned from a 4 month working tour at Yellowstone Park. Just so wonderful to hear her exciting adventures in the US. I really enjoy talking to her cos she is really 'bubbling' in Christ. She will be starting her PHD in Jan - probably on the topic of 'spiders'! To Jie Jie Suping: Sarah, Samuel and Hannah are looking forward to those special guided 'spider' tours of Sungei Buloh and other nature places in Singapore:)


Thursday - Visiting Yixiang's grandma. 
This was a visit that I knew I had to make when I was better. Yixuan, Yixiang's grandma and the rest of the family popped into my mind several times since Feb. Well, I am so thankful that we could make this visit. Although YX grandma's walking is impeded, she is amazingly sharp and knew who Daniel, Sarah and I was. She even asked where Samuel was. I pray that the Lord would reveal Himself in a special way to everyone in this family and that this household would be given entirely to the Lord. Dear Yixiang, continue to plead on bended knees for your family and never be too busy for that. Our great God delights to save them and nothing is impossible for Him.
"Those who sow in tears Shall reap in joy. 
He who continually goes forth weeping, Bearing seed for sowing, 
Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, Bringing his sheaves with him." 
Psalm 126:5-6

 
Sat Morning - Hannah's Wedding
I thank God for this dear colleague. I have spent wonderful times praying with Hannah who also loves God. I think it was just 2 years ago that we prayed for that special someone for her and well...our God is one who answers prayers. It is truly a blessing to be able to attend her wedding - the service really blessed my heart and it was so wonderful to see my colleagues and ex-students again.




Saturday Evening - Samuel's 4th Month Celebration. It's amazing that it has been 4 months since Samuel was born. Looking at how well formed and perfect he is  - I can only praise God. A true miracle! 

Sunday Evening - Visiting Sis Meow Noi. As I was having my afternoon nap, her name popped into mind. And I have learnt through these many months, never to ignore these thoughts. So, I decided to drop her an sms. When she told me that she had hoped to speak to Daniel and myself on Sunday morning but couldn't catch us, I knew that God had meant for us to meet. It was a blessed time as she asked questions about her condition and whether she should go for chemotherapy. Daniel explained to her medically what it all meant and we were so glad that we could pray together with her to seek the Lord's wisdom and to remember that God is in control of this seemingly difficult situation. Please remember Sis Meow Noi in prayer. She has been diagnosed with Stage 1A ovarian cancer just like me and would be undergoing chemotherapy real soon. 

Nov 10th - Praise be to God

CA reading - 10.7

As I walked into Prof Tay's office that day, he was beaming from ear to ear. "That's the reading I am looking for," he said. I have walked into that same office many times this year and many times, the news that greeted me is one of great magnitude and gravity. But I know that God walks into that room with me everytime. What a comfort amidst the raging storm to know that God is not only with you but He is the one to command the storm to stop. 
I will strive to remember this day not for this day alone, but because God kept all His promises to me as I desperately clung unto them throughout this year.
"For He Himself has said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you"  
Hebrew 13:5

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; 
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. 
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, 
Nor shall the flame scorch you." 
Isaiah 43:2

To my dear children, princess Sarah and miracle Samuel (also to my family, relatives, friends, colleagues and students), the God that Daddy and Mommy trust is the one true God. He has proved Himself over and over again in our lives that He indeed is the unique One who is worthy of all our praise. As both of you grow up and would read through this precious blog, may you come to know Him as your very own Saviour and Lord. 

I know, O Lord, that Your judgments are right, 

And that in faithfulness You have afflicted me.

Let, I pray, Your merciful kindness be for my comfort, 

According to Your word to Your servant.

 Let Your tender mercies come to me, that I may live; 

For Your law is my delight.

Psalm 119:75-77

[thanks ChiaoChyi for bringing these verses to mind]

Samuel Turns 4 Months!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Emperor's New Clothes

Isn't it amazing how fairy tales are quite an accurate reflection of reality?

MANY years ago there lived an Emperor, who was so excessively fond of grand new clothes that he spent all his money upon them, that he might be very fine. He did not care about his soldiers, nor about the theatre, and only liked to drive out and show his new clothes. He had a coat for every hour of the day; and just as they say of a king, “He is in council,” so they always said of him, “The Emperor is in the wardrobe.”

In the great city in which he lived it was always very merry; every day came many strangers; one day two rogues came: they gave themselves out as weavers, and declared they could weave the finest stuff any one could imagine. Not only were their colors and patterns, they said, uncommonly beautiful, but the clothes made of the stuff possessed the wonderful quality that they became invisible to any one who was unfit for the office he held, or was incorrigibly stupid.

 “Those would be capital clothes!” thought the Emperor. “If I wore those, I should be able to find out what men in my empire are not fit for the places they have; I could tell the clever from the dunces. Yes, the stuff must be woven for me directly!”

And he gave the two rogues a great deal of cash in hand, that they might begin their work at once.

 As for them, they put up two looms, and pretended to be working; but they had nothing at all on their looms. They at once demanded the finest silk and the costliest gold; this they put into their own pockets, and worked at the empty looms till late into the night.

“I should like to know how far they have got on with the stuff,” thought the Emperor. But he felt quite uncomfortable when he thought that those who were not fit for their offices could not see it. He believed, indeed, that he had nothing to fear for himself, but yet he preferred first to send some one else to see how matters stood. All the people in the city knew what peculiar power the stuff possessed, and all were anxious to see how bad or how stupid their neighbors were.

“I will send my honest old Minister to the weavers,” thought the Emperor. “He can judge best how the stuff looks, for he has sense, and no one understands his office better than he.”

Now the good old Minister went out into the hall where the two rogues sat working at the empty looms.

“Mercy on us!” thought the old Minister, and he opened his eyes wide. “I cannot see anything at all!” But he did not say this.
Both the rogues begged him to be so good as to come nearer, and asked if he did not approve of the colors and the pattern. Then they pointed to the empty loom, and the poor old Minister went on opening his eyes; but he could see nothing, for there was nothing to see.
“Mercy!” thought he, “can I indeed be so stupid? I never thought that, and not a soul must know it. Am I not fit for my office? No, it will never do for me to tell that I could not see the stuff.”
Don’t you say anything to it?” asked one, as he went on weaving.

  “O, it is charming—quite enchanting!” answered the old Minister, as he peered through his spectacles. “What a fine pattern, and what colors! Yes, I shall tell the Emperor that I am very much pleased with it.”

 “Well, we are glad of that,” said both the weavers; and then they named the colors, and explained the strange pattern. The old Minister listened attentively, that he might be able to repeat it when the Emperor came. And he did so.

 Now the rogues asked for more money, and silk and gold, which they declared they wanted for weaving. They put all into their own pockets, and not a thread was put upon the loom; they continued to work at the empty frames as before.

The Emperor soon sent again, dispatching another honest officer of the court, to see how the weaving was going on, and if the stuff would soon be ready. He fared just like the first: he looked and looked, but, as there was nothing to be seen but the empty looms, he could see nothing.

“Is not that a pretty piece of stuff?” asked the two rogues; and they displayed and explained the handsome pattern which was not there at all.

“I am not stupid!” thought the man: “it must be my good office, for which I am not fit. It is funny enough, but I must not let it be noticed.” And so he praised the stuff which he did not see, and expressed his pleasure at the beautiful colors and charming pattern. “Yes, it is enchanting,” he told the Emperor.

All the people in the town were talking of the gorgeous stuff. The Emperor wished to see it himself while it was still upon the loom. With a whole crowd of chosen men, among whom were also the two honest statesmen who had already been there, he went to the two cunning rogues, who were now weaving with might and main without fibre or thread.

“Is not that splendid?” said the two statesmen, who had already been there once. “Does not your Majesty remark the pattern and the colors?” And they pointed to the empty loom, for they thought that the others could see the stuff.

“What’s this?” thought the Emperor. “I can see nothing at all! That is terrible. Am I stupid? Am I not fit to be Emperor? That would be the most dreadful thing that could happen to me. O, it is very pretty!” he said aloud. “It has our highest approbation.” And he nodded in a contented way, and gazed at the empty loom, for he would not say that he saw nothing. The whole suite whom he had with him looked and looked, and saw nothing, any more than the rest; but, like the Emperor, they said, “That is pretty!” and counseled him to wear the splendid new clothes for the first time at the great procession that was presently to take place. “It is splendid, excellent!” went from mouth to mouth. On all sides there seemed to be general rejoicing, and the Emperor gave the rogues the title of Imperial Court Weavers.

The whole night before the morning on which the procession was to take place, the rogues were up, and kept more than sixteen candles burning. The people could see that they were hard at work, completing the Emperor’s new clothes. They pretended to take the stuff down from the loom; they made cuts in the air with great scissors; they sewed with needles without thread; and at last they said, “Now the clothes are ready!”

 The Emperor came himself with his noblest cavaliers; and the two rogues lifted up one arm as if they were holding something, and said, “See, here are the trousers! here is the coat! here is the cloak!” and so on. “It is as light as a spider’s web: one would thin one had nothing on; but that is just the beauty of it.”

“Yes,” said all the cavaliers; but they could not see anything, for nothing was there.

“Will your Imperial Majesty please to condescend to take off your clothes?” said the rogues; “then we will put on you the new clothes here in front of the great mirror.”

The Emperor took off his clothes, and the rogues pretended to put on him each new garment as it was ready; and the Emperor turned round and round before the mirror.

“O, how well they look! how capitally they fit!” said all. “What a pattern! what colors! That is a splendid dress!”

 “They are standing outside with the canopy, which is to be borne above your Majesty in the procession!” announced the head Master of the Ceremonies.

“Well, I am ready,” replied the Emperor. “Does it not suit me well?” And then he turned again to the mirror, for he wanted it to appear as if he contemplated his adornment with great interest.

 The two chamberlains, who were to carry the train, stooped down with their hands toward the floor, just as if they were picking up the mantle; then they pretended to be holding something in the air. They did not dare to let it be noticed that they saw nothing.

 So the Emperor went in procession under the rich canopy, and every one in the streets said, “How incomparable are the Emperor’s new clothes! what a train he has to his mantle! how it fits him!” No one would let it be perceived that he could see nothing, for that would have shown that he was not fit for his office, or was very stupid. No clothes of the Emperor’s had ever had such a success as these.

  “But he has nothing on!” a little child cried out at last.

 “Just hear what that innocent," said the father. “But he has nothing on!” said the whole people at length and one whispered to another what the child had said. That touched the Emperor, for it seemed to him that they were right; but the thought within himself, “I must go through with the procession.” And so he held himself a little higher, and the chamberlains held on tighter than ever, and carried the train which did not exist at all.

Taken from Hans Christian Andersen. (1805–1875)  Tales. The Harvard Classics.  1909–14.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Blessed 30th Birthday My Dear Husband

I thank God that He has chosen you for me right from the start. I cannot imagine having someone else as my  husband. You are God's choice for me and the best for me.

I have always thought that I would be the physically strong one who would take care of you, but never would I have imagined that you would take care of me - physically, spiritually and in every way. The daily night massages, the drives around Singapore, the little surprises and just simply wanting to be with me everyday have meant so much to me. Thank you for telling me that I am the most beautiful person [other than Sarah] in the world even though my hair was all gone during chemo. Thank you telling me that you love me very very very much. Thank you for being my pillar and my strength when the load seems so heavy to bear.

This year has been an 'incredible' year for the both of us in every sense of the word.  But I really marvel and praise God when I see how you run to Him in every step of the narrow path that He has charted out for us because "it is the most natural thing" for you to do. As I see your confidence in our LORD, my confidence in Him remained unmoved.  It still amazes me how you desire His Word at all times and steal pockets of time to read His word everywhere you go using that little brown pocket bible of yours. And more so, how essential it is in your life for you to pray and talk to your beloved Father. Even little Sarah knows not to disturb you when you talk to Him.  

My prayer - is that God would be merciful to us and our family and our church - that He would give me many days ahead, so that I can be a helpmate, a companion, a confidante, a sparring partner to you, and a mother to our lovely children.

We love you very very much! 
Blessed Birthday to the bestest husband and daddy!
 Sarah, Samuel & Mommy

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

My Family





Special thanks to Sandra for these beautiful surprises!

Little Samuel Grows Up


Heartfelt thanks to my SIL Chiao Chyi who kept faithful in snapping pictures of little Sarah and little Samuel while I recovered. Here is an entry from her blog www.chiaochyi.blogspot.com

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

The Chief End of Man

You are worthy, O Lord, 
To receive glory and honor and power; 
For You created all things, 
And by Your will they exist and were created.
Revelation 4:11 

We are created to honor and glorify God 
through our words, thoughts and actions.

Monday, November 03, 2008

A Narrative on Love

Waves of memories lapped gently onto the shores of Sarah's mind as she stared at the lovely beachtown for the very last time. It was here where her first cries broke the stillness of the night; it was here where her tiny palms and delicate knees first met the sand; it was here where her tiny feet ambled and walked and ran and galloped and strode. All of her world has been till now - beautiful blue skies and endless ocean. Gripping tightly to her pink suitcase, Sarah tries desperately to capture the ole and familiar scene in her mind, albeit through a veil of watery mist. She hates to leave but she has to leave. The tides since 10 years ago has changed dramatically and it warns of an impending calamity. Some have already left silently without bidding goodbye. 

As she looked out again into the expansive horizon for the final time, she noticed that something was amiss. The shore! It was never this huge before. And the fishes! Trouts which have always enjoyed a game of hide and seek with her father's fishing rods were flapping openly and gleaming dangerously along the shore. Glancing at the women, men, children and babies stretched across the beach, Sarah realized that it may all be too late. She threw her suitcase onto the sand, raced frantically across the beach and hollered at the top of her voice, 'Run everyone, run!' Gasping for breath, she cried, 'Tsunami!'

The beach goers sat up at the sound of the desperate cry that shrilled through the cool and calm air. But when they caught sight of the girl they knew from young, their startled faces broke into chuckles of relief and they returned to their sandcastles, their beach chairs and their picnic baskets. Even so, Sarah wouldn't stop her run - she couldn't. These were the people she knew and loved since young. It didn't matter if they thought she was a ranting lunatic. Her love for them compels her to act apart from herself. Her pleads of warning were greeted by expressions of amusement, bafflement and anger as well as hollers of 'Go home' and ' Stop disturbing the peace here'.

Suddenly, from the corner of her eye, Sarah caught sight of her best friend Cherrel basking in the sun. Without thinking, Sarah ran towards her best friend and grabbed Cherrel by her hands and started dragging Cherrel away from the shore and up the hill. 
'What in the world is....,' yelled Cherrel as she struggled to get up on her two feet, 'Let go now!' Cherrel tried to flay her arms wildly to loosen Sarah's grip. But as if with renewed strength, Sarah gritted her teeth, tightened her grip and continued doggedly to pull Cherrel up the hill. This was the very hill which they had in their childhood race up in their flippers and slid down on their cardboard inspired sledges. But today, the way up the hill was the most treacherous and painful the two had ever experienced. 

Finally, Sarah caught sight of the light coming through the trees and she collapsed in sheer exhaustion. Both of them laid on top of the hill disheveled, wounded and bruised. Through tears of anger and confusion, Cherrel glared at Sarah, her best friend of 30 years and tried to make sense of her apparently barbaric, rude, hurtful and absolutely unloving actions. It was then, that her thoughts were abruptly interrupted by an angry thunderous roar. And when she saw the unforgiving waters greedily devour the beach and her home, Cherrel finally understood - Sarah's love had saved her life.

This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 
Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.
John 15:12-13