There would follow a second operation after the first -dated 17th Feb. That second operation was to remove my right ovary and lymph nodes. The prognosis after the second operation was even more grim for I was found to have clear cell cancer of the ovary.
I was definitely hitting all the odds. The occurence of a young female having clear cell cancer was indeed a rarity. Above it all, I was a pregnant young female. According to Dr Chua, there are only 4 such reported cases in the world. Perhaps more unreported, but nonetheless, rare. Through this 'bizzare' revelation of events since 21st Jan, Daniel and I knew that all this clearly did not happen by chance but that God had allowed all this to happen. In His sovereign plan and will, He has it all charted out.
Did I ask that one million dollar question: Why me, God? You bet I did. There were many unanswered questions. I definitely needed time to understand how a normal person like me, with no family history of cancer could contract an aggressive form of cancer and life seems to change almost immediately.
But I thank God for His grace in time of need - that His grace was sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect in my weakness. His working and faithfulness in my life since I was young never at once made me grow angry or disappointed with His choice of path for my life. I did not dare get angry at my God. But it definitely baffled me and brought me down to my knees as I plead with God to give me understanding of His 'strange' path of moving and working. With nothing else to hold on to [not even life and health itself], I could only trust God to carry me through this journey.
God is gracious for He never left me nor forsook me. In His love, He gave me a husband who loved Him with all his heart as well as a husband who is trained in this field of oncology. He gave me a family who could interceed on my behalf. He gave me a people of God who also interceeded on my behalf. He provided us with a domestic helper who loved Him, is a good help and could pray for her Mam. The list goes on and on.
Now I can only trust Him to help me beat the odds.
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